I wish I was good at this.
I wish I could focus and post on social media all the time.
I wish I put my sensitive ego away for a while and just plastered the internet with everything i've ever done.
that's how you win, right?
you become shameless.
but i am shamefull.
It's what makes me a good artist, people keep saying.
Maybe.
Or maybe its what holds me back.
Back from what though?
‘Fame'?
Do I even want that?
Shit, well if not that, then what?
For the kids from high school to say 'dang, Alex is really doing it."
For money enough to buy a house with some land?
Sure, but even that.
Even that.
The more stuff you get, the messier your room becomes.
My desk right now is littered with the spoils.
A bowl with two spoons in it inside another bowl atop a plate under which two pieces of paper. No, four. I see four in the corner, and under them a lighter . Next to the lighter, a gatorade electrolye bottle with a few sips left. Open water bottle next to that.
There's too much, so there’s never enough.
Between them, inside them, the work.
And the play.
The goofs and, what's that there?
A bluejay.
Here's my convo with
, the genius behind . We've lived parallel lives as comedians except he became a buzzfeed superstar and it sorta ruined him? My words, not his. We talk about that and everything else here.I ai’d the convo into highlights written in the style of buzzfeed article titles lol, here they are:
I Worked at BuzzFeed and Here’s How Failing to Go Viral Nearly Broke Me
Inside the Machine: The Secret Algorithms and Button Ceremonies That Fueled Early Internet Fame
From Making Sketches With Quinta Brunson to Burnout: My Life as an Accidental Internet Celebrity
Why Every Creator Eventually Becomes a “Recovering Content Creator”
Creating for the Algorithm vs. Creating for Yourself: The Battle No One Prepares You For
How “Hate Sharing” and Purposely Making Mistakes Earned Us Millions of Views
What Happened When I Got Laid Off Three Times in Two Years
Is Sincerity Cheesy? How Creative Vulnerability Feels Scary in Hustle Culture
I Tried a 30-Day Creative Detox—Here’s What Cutting Out Caffeine and Social Media Actually Did
Why I Stopped Chasing Viral Hits and Started Making Art I Actually Liked
My Advice to Young Creators: Find Peace in Being Misunderstood
What Losing 100,000 Instagram Followers Taught Me About Self-Worth
Substack vs. BuzzFeed: Reinventing Creative Community for Grown-Ups
Why the Internet Feels Like a Never-Ending High School Reunion
It’s Not Just You—Every Creative Spends Too Much Time Checking Their Numbers
Love yall and hey, thank god its friday (TGIF)
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