lil audio recorded MOMENTS after yesterday's S1 opener

I'd slept like 3 hours and boy howdy can you tell

here’s me recording this audio at CBS. notice anything funny in the photo?

Woof. Yesterday, I dropped the opening piece of Season One:

I got a perfect score on my SAT and all I got was this lousy feeling of never being enough

It was a slog and a half. 1.5 slog. I had woken up at around 3am to finish and finally hit publish at 7:29am.

Here’s an audio rant lil guy that I recorded right afterwards. I haven’t listened to it back so let’s hope it doesn’t have me confessing to any crimes.

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aaaaand coming in with a hot burn that I wish I’d thought of myself:

The funny thing in the photo above

Did you see him?

On writing the essay

The whole thing felt like I was taking an SAT. So much of my life does. Usually I don’t even notice. Yesterday, though, I did.

Writing about the perfectionist never enoughness at my core was really hard. Like the topic did not want to be confronted, and so I’d enter these fugue states of wtf and emerge hours later having forgotten what I’d even been writing about that whole time??

Which makes a lot of sense. It was like I decided to put on the Ring from LOTR just one final time to write a book report on why The Ring Is Bad.

But I still wore the ring and felt its power. Or in this case, felt the way it took away all power and self from me until I proved myself worthy of it by being the best there ever was.

After publishing though, I felt pretty damn good. I was in a haze of a daze, but after a snap of a nap, I felt free. For a brief time there, I didn’t feel the need to earn my existence. We went to the playground and had some dinner and laughs. It was good.

I had some other good idea to write about here but I forgot!

Comments — AAA

1. I’m too sleepy to think of any questions so let’s do this - an AAA - Ask Anyone Anything. Post ur questions for me and/or anyone else.